I miss ya .

When you walk away , I count the steps that you take . Do you see how much I need you right now ?

I literally did this on that day I last saw him . Oh I miss you sangat sangat . " Jaga diri " sort of his last words . I went home crying . I took pics of the house as memories . And I took pics of Irdina . I miss her so much much . She's my everything . I hugged everyone except him . :'( I miss you lahr ! When you're gone , the peices of my heart is missing you . Suddenly I cried because I missed him so much ! Mata bengkak menagis . Haiz . Haiz , I'm sure he's heartbroken . And he's disappointed that after 5 years , I'm leaving him . I love you so much and I will love you until I get an apple to grow on a peach tree . OMFG , I wish we were together forever . And we would never be separated . I miss you I miss you I miss you . And always ingat kay , I love you till whenever . I care for you like how you care for me . Your love is really important in my life . You cheer up my days . You make me smile always . ALWAYS . I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH . I MISS YOU BANYAK BANYAK .

Dear God , I want to meet Daddykins again . I miss him alot . He's the Sun you have created for me . Every night I give a silent cry . Seriously every night . I swear . Cry and cry and cry . What else can I do kan ? I miss Ayah so badly . I pray everyday that he'll be okay and fine and less disappoited in me . And hoping one day I could meet him . He's my DAD . Air dicincang tiada putus . You musn't separate me and my dad ! We're a family . Firstly you've separated my parents - now me ? Then ? Irdina ? Oh God , please don't let it happen . I may not be the only one facing these family probs and difficulties - but I feel shameful among my friends . Some had faced parent's divorcation . Some have their Uncle in jail . Some have grandparents with no home . Some have financial issues . Some have their parents marrying twice . Some have stepsiblings who hate them . Some have grandmother that is suffering a disease and doesn't have long to live . Some have aunties changing religion from Muslim to Christian . But do they have all above ? Oh yeah I forgot , they're not me , only I suffer all these situations . There's more to list down , really . But I'm tired enough .

Dear readers , you may think I'm over-reacting , but put yourself my my sandals ( i prefer sandals than shoes ) . If you have a life like mine , and further more - stress , you may turn up like the kid who killed herself due to her parent's divorce . It's good that I still can maintain and I haven't die . But if I die due to this , you better take back your words or I'll haunt you all your life . So shut up and keep your bloody mouth closed .

Dear me , chill . Daddy's gonna come about when he's okay . (=
[ Just some words for motivation ]

Okaaylah , the more I write , the more I cry . :'( Tatas .