Happy 2011 !

HappyNewYearEveryone ILoveYou

It wasn't me

Picture this ; we were both butt naked bangin' on the bathroom door .

Nothing much . Boring day w/o him .

Yay ! Finally my boyfriend online ! But his FB chat siaosiao . Hmpfh -.-

Now I editing photos ! Yay . I just so love editing photo . Haha , random kepehr ?

Urm , now I'm on Facebook . Checking dumbells , but now my hubby , of course ! Ahahaha .

Me and Haidah are in the same school !! Yippee !! Woots !! Yaay !!

K , bye .

My hubby suruh update , recently nothing much . Dier stead ngan dier . Dier break ngan dier . New year's resolution . 2011 Countdown . Uh , boring . Well , Imma stay at home and shake a leg baby ! =))

Twitter me !

I'm on Twitter !  Catch me now peeps !

Never Say Never

A sneak peak of Justin's movie NEVER SAY NEVER !

OPSS seh .

Ochid Park seh ! Wee ! Just now had fun fun fun time wall to wall posts with Hana . She's my twinney ! Imma 1 day elder yo ! Fiwit ! Ahahaha , - kakak !

So , that's all . Listening to The Time - Black Eyed Peas ( Dirty Bit )

Nice song .

LISTEN !!

Kay best .

Bye .

Captures

Me liao .

uhuh!

I miss ya .

When you walk away , I count the steps that you take . Do you see how much I need you right now ?

I literally did this on that day I last saw him . Oh I miss you sangat sangat . " Jaga diri " sort of his last words . I went home crying . I took pics of the house as memories . And I took pics of Irdina . I miss her so much much . She's my everything . I hugged everyone except him . :'( I miss you lahr ! When you're gone , the peices of my heart is missing you . Suddenly I cried because I missed him so much ! Mata bengkak menagis . Haiz . Haiz , I'm sure he's heartbroken . And he's disappointed that after 5 years , I'm leaving him . I love you so much and I will love you until I get an apple to grow on a peach tree . OMFG , I wish we were together forever . And we would never be separated . I miss you I miss you I miss you . And always ingat kay , I love you till whenever . I care for you like how you care for me . Your love is really important in my life . You cheer up my days . You make me smile always . ALWAYS . I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH . I MISS YOU BANYAK BANYAK .

Dear God , I want to meet Daddykins again . I miss him alot . He's the Sun you have created for me . Every night I give a silent cry . Seriously every night . I swear . Cry and cry and cry . What else can I do kan ? I miss Ayah so badly . I pray everyday that he'll be okay and fine and less disappoited in me . And hoping one day I could meet him . He's my DAD . Air dicincang tiada putus . You musn't separate me and my dad ! We're a family . Firstly you've separated my parents - now me ? Then ? Irdina ? Oh God , please don't let it happen . I may not be the only one facing these family probs and difficulties - but I feel shameful among my friends . Some had faced parent's divorcation . Some have their Uncle in jail . Some have grandparents with no home . Some have financial issues . Some have their parents marrying twice . Some have stepsiblings who hate them . Some have grandmother that is suffering a disease and doesn't have long to live . Some have aunties changing religion from Muslim to Christian . But do they have all above ? Oh yeah I forgot , they're not me , only I suffer all these situations . There's more to list down , really . But I'm tired enough .

Dear readers , you may think I'm over-reacting , but put yourself my my sandals ( i prefer sandals than shoes ) . If you have a life like mine , and further more - stress , you may turn up like the kid who killed herself due to her parent's divorce . It's good that I still can maintain and I haven't die . But if I die due to this , you better take back your words or I'll haunt you all your life . So shut up and keep your bloody mouth closed .

Dear me , chill . Daddy's gonna come about when he's okay . (=
[ Just some words for motivation ]

Okaaylah , the more I write , the more I cry . :'( Tatas .

Anderson - No no .

Alrighties ! Today [281210] will determine whether my appeal for Anderson was successful or not . Hmm , Iffah and I made a "wish" somewhere this year . That Me and Iffah would be together and Rhea and Alaiyah would be together . We always have friendship problems with them . And it's the same thing over and over again . They're just sensitive , in my opinion . Well , I hope the fuss has come to an end .

Kay , bitxh , you better cermin mukehr sememek kau tu . Perangai buruk . " Can I be your bf " . Dah aku katehr NO means NO . I'm bloody attached , can't you get that to your motherfxcking brain ? Are you THAT stupid to understand ? Haiz , I hate you . Get a fxcking life braddar ! Love someone else ! I'm taken !

Okaay , I am so happy . Harap - harap I don't get Anderson ! Wee ~ . But besides that , Ms Sng wants to see me top the school . Urgh , work hard . Like what Smiley says : Study-udy-udy !! Weee ..

I love JB , kaay that was so random .

You know ? Nuraini say she will cry if I get Anderson . Lols . Cry cry cry ! I wan see your tears ! =)

And this is suc'cha coincidence : my stepsister's names are Nuraini & Iffah . Ahahaha .

So , my day was fun . And I saw Iffah's MINAH bag . Lols , kay kay , not so minah lahr . My bag is ..... Idk liao . Enyahahaha .

Kaay kaay , I wan go toilet . Jk , I wan grab coke . Bye virt-peeps . Btw follow meh below :

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Happy Birthday Hayley !

Omg , HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAYLEY WILLIAM ! I totally dunno . Ahahaha .

Hmm , I loike their song Decode , and alot more uh .

I love OPSS . Kay , randoms .

Read Iqaa's blog ! Her link is somewhere below on your right . Check her name as 'Shahiqah' . Okay ?

That's all ahr peeps . Tata .

Justin Bieber !

Wee , I love you Justin !

I edit ar ! My copyright !

Results Day

Weee ! OCHID PARK SECONDARY SCHOOL , here I datang .

I am so happy , Nana got RGS Sec ! I am so happy for ya !

Justin Bieber ‘LIVE’ in Singapore on May 11, 2011!

Justin Bieber ‘LIVE’ in Singapore on May 11, 2011!

Woohoo!

Hubby tinggalkan wifey .

WAAAAAAH ! Bbhy nak gi KL seh . Imma miss you sayaaaaang ! ='(

My hubby's going KL . Jyeaah . So sad . Bhy bhy , behave tau . Jgn nakal-nakal pat sanehr !

I wanna meet Afiq , Haris , Darwin , Khairul and and THE ULTIMATE AQIILINA damn badly ! :(

Haiz , I so miss you guys , ugh !

I MISS MY HUBBY ! BARU KAHWIN DAH TINGGALKAN BINI ! Hahaha ! LOL .

I miss him badly -- as friend .

I MISS MUHAMMAD AFIQ BIN ABDUL HAIRY ! ARGH ! EH CHIPEK , IMY BADLY SEH !

AIYOYO , i walked past a place where me and ---- ever had a chat on th phone . he vv retard lahr . he wanted to know whether i liked someone else . then i said what if . after that my phone rang . it was him . jeng jeng jeng . so , mestilah i picked up the phone . he asked me : who is th other person ?

walao this chipek . haha , dont cry ar .

i still keep those memories . haiz ...

Bye lahr .. I wanna zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz ...

I miss my duddy wuddy hunny wunny cutie apple pie(s) .

I miss my handsome gay friend , my black mamba , my hubby , my everything . But mostly I miss that gay who is dang handsome , good-looking , funny , pervertic , retarded , geek , no-taste guy , and most of all DANG GORGEOUS in th inside -- although sometimes nvr help peepo . Bad gay .

This was our conversation in October . Blue - him , Red - me ;

hi

hi , are you bored or smth ?

a
b
o
d
e
n

lek arh , mother .

ok ah , father

how can i be your father ?

 

how can i be ur mother?

 

because its stated in ur profile . .

 

hi

 

can we at least start a topic ? rather than saying 'hi' again and again ?

 

ok
ok
ok

 

uh , talk abt what ?

 

hu u like now?

 

cannot trust you . sure u tell ---- . den he spread ..

 

sumpah i wont tel anione

 

duwwan . cannot trust you !

 

plz larh.. i promise i wont tel anione

 

really ? really ? really ?

 

yes yes yes

 

nah , tell me who you like first ..

 

noone..ur turn

 

no one .

 

ok

 

-- I LOVE chatting with him . It's damn fun (=

I love his hair th most .. And his voice .. Oklah peeps , I'm bored and nth to do , so byebye sayaangs (:

 

Not tired yet .

It's 4:35 AM and I'm still awake. Gosh, tired already. I wanna buy new hp! ^^

Bye. Mata keroh seh.

I love you. Nahh. I love me. =)

I’m afraid of 16 out of 72 common fears .

I’m afraid of 16 out of 72 common fears .

[  ] the dark
[  ] staying single forever
[  ] being a parent
[  ] giving birth
[  ] being myself in front of others.
[  ] open spaces
[  ] closed spaces
[  ] heights
[  ] dogs
[  ] birds
[  ] fish
[  ] spiders
[  ] flowers or other plants
[  ] being touched
[x] fire
[x] deep water
[x] snakes
[  ] silk
[  ] the ocean
[x] failure
[  ] success
[x] thunder/lightning
[  ] frogs/toads
[  ] my boyfriend’s/girlfriend’s dad
[  ] boyfriend’s/girlfriend’s mom
[  ] rats
[x] jumping from high places
[  ] snow
[  ] rain
[  ] wind
[  ] crossing hanging bridges
[x] death
[  ] heaven
[x] being robbed  
[  ] falling
[  ] clowns
[  ] dolls
[  ] large crowds of people
[  ] men
[  ] women
[  ] having great responsibilities
[  ] doctors
[x] tornadoes
[x] hurricanes
[x] incurable diseases
[x] sharks
[  ] Friday the 13th
[  ] ghosts
[  ] poverty
[  ] halloween
[  ] school
[  ] trains
[  ] odd numbers
[  ] even numbers
[  ] being alone
[  ] becoming blind
[  ] becoming deaf
[  ] growing up
[x] creepy noises in the night
[x] bee stings
[x] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[  ] needles
[  ] blood
[x] dinosaurs
[  ] the welcome mat
[  ] high speed
[  ] throwing up
[  ] falling in love
[  ] super secrets

If you repost this, it’s been barequested that you title it “I’m afraid of _ out of 72 common fears”
If you get more than 30, I strongly recommend some counseling.
If you get more than 20, you’re paranoid.
If you get 10-20, you are normal. =) Me.
If you get 10 or less, you’re fearless.
People who don’t have any are liars.

I'm 12 but I act 18

I'm 12 but I act 18

[X] You know how to make a pot of coffee
[  ] You keep track of dates using a calendar
[  ] You own a credit card
[  ] You know how to change the oil in a car
[X] You've done your own laundry
[X] You can vote in an election
[X] You can cook for yourself
[  ] You think politics are interesting

TOTAL: 4

[X] You show up for school late a lot
[X] You always carry a pen/pencil in your bag/purse/pocket
[X] You've never gotten a detention
[  ] You have forgotten your own birthday
[  ] You like to take walks by yourself
[  ] You know what credibility means, without looking it up
[  ] You drink caffeine at least once a week

TOTAL: 3

[X] You know how to do the dishes
[X] You can count to 10 in another language
[X] When you say you're going to do something you do it
[  ] You can mow the lawn
[  ] You study even when you don't have to
[X] You have hand washed a car before

TOTAL: 4

[X] You can spell experience, without looking it up
[  ] The people at Starbucks know you by name
[  ] Your favorite kind of food is take out
[  ] You can go to the store without getting something you don't need
[  ] You understand political jokes the first time they are said
[X] You can type pretty quick

TOTAL: 2

[  ] Your only friends are from your place of employment
[  ] You have been to a Tupperware party
[  ] You have realized that practically no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job.
[  ] You have more bills than you can pay
[X] You have been to the beach
[X] You use the internet every day
[X] You have travelled overseas for more than 5 times
[X] You make your bed in the morning
[X] You realised people of the opposite sex might just make better friends.

TOTAL: 5 

GRAND TOTAL: 4+3+4+2+5 = 18

I can't love you .

" I want this to be said straight and simple. I've been trying all my might to love you. But I just can't. I really can't. I hope you understand me. I'd rather wait for someone than to pretend to love you. You might feel hurt now but you wouldn't know how hurt I was faking and acting everytime chattin' with you. It was even painful, y'know? I can't help it. I know th feeling when you lose your loved one. But I don't think I'm th right partner. You'll find one when you've reached th right time. I'm not sayin' all this because I wanna dump and ditch you. But if you understand me & feel the way I feel, and you wanna let me go, you're very most welcome. But if you still wanna have me, you're happy but what abt me? I won't force you. I just wanna be truthful. Cause hiding th truth hurts - with a capital H. Sorry.
Yanaa Diyanaa "

 

I just wrote th above to HIM. Boo yaa! I feel relaxed. But he will make th decision, whether to keep me and feel happy for himself or we share th same feelings. D: 081210 will be memories in my brain, my heart, my vein, and my butt. Haha! Fake. We're just 'NOT MEANT TO BE'. Not destined together. Terribly sorry, dear.

 

S O R R Y S O R R Y !

Omg , he's D:

Blue - him , White - me :--  

hi

hello(:

bleyh tanya smth?

yupp..

do you actually really love me ? D:

tht i dunno .. im tryin to love you ..

i know you are tryin cause you love ----- i knoe kay , nvm D:

well , at least i'm trying ?!

ouh.

pfft -.-

i dont mind if you love ----- , its okay , just go ahead ,just throw me out of your mind , but all you need to know , i love you D:

 

Haiz.. Speechless.. Wtf man? =..=''

 

its gonna come out simple and easy. i hate you 99%. its your attitude. i know you wont care cuz there are oder people. just un-sister me. sowie.

 

-- very painful to hear this. on the other side, i don't fucking hell care, boo yaah!

My Wishlist .

I want a Professional 120 Eyeshadow Palette Matte & Shimmer :-

Or maybe a 88 Palette for a start :-



I also want a handphone the same as Justin Bieber ; Nokia E71 but in purple :-

Haizzz..

My wishlist is DEFINITELY more than this 3 things.. (:

New pics uploaded , camwhore !

New pics above ^^.

Haiz, bored .. Nth to say liao. Dada!

Reason, Season, or Lifetime .

Reason, Season, or Lifetime
People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.

When you figure out which one it is,

you will know what to do for each person.

When someone is in your life for a REASON,

it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.

They have come to assist you through a difficulty;

to provide you with guidance and support;

to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually.

They may seem like a godsend, and they are.

They are there for the reason you need them to be.

Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time,

this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.

Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away.

Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.

What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled; their work is done.

The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON,

because your turn has come to share, grow or learn.

They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.

They may teach you something you have never done.

They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.

Believe it. It is real. But only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons;

things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation.

Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person,

and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life.

It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

Wo ai ni .

전 태 분을 사랑하고 호 분. 그 이외의, 나는 다윈 사랑 해요! 난 아주 많이 타우 그를 사랑해! 리 분 호!

Short post. Nothing much today liao.

Mine

"Mine"

You were in college working part time waitin’ tables
Left a small town, never looked back
I was a flight risk with a fear of fallin’
Wondering why we bother with love if it never lasts

I say "Can you believe it?
As we’re lying on the couch?"
The moment I can see it.
Yes, yes, I can see it now.

Do you remember, we were sitting there by the water?
You put your arm around me for the first time.
You made a rebel of a careless man’s careful daughter.
You are the best thing that’s ever been mine.

Flash forward and we’re taking on the world together,
And there’s a drawer of my things at your place.
You learn my secrets and you figure out why I’m guarded,
You say we’ll never make my parents’ mistakes.

But we got bills to pay,
We got nothing figured out,
When it was hard to take,
Yes, yes, this is what I thought about.

Do you remember, we were sitting there, by the water?
You put your arm around me for the first time
You made a rebel of a careless man’s careful daughter
You are the best thing that’s ever been mine.

Do you remember all the city lights on the water?
You saw me start to believe for the first time
You made a rebel of a careless man’s careful daughter
You are the best thing that’s ever been mine.

Oh, oh, oh

And I remember that fight
Two-thirty AM
Yes, everything was slipping right out of our hands
I ran out crying and you followed me out into the street
Braced myself for the "Goodbye"
‘cause that’s all I’ve ever known
And you took me by surprise
You said, "I’ll never leave you alone."

You said, "I remember how we felt sitting by the water
And every time I look at you, it’s like the first time
I fell in love with a careless man’s careful daughter
She is the best thing that’s ever been mine."

You made a rebel of a careless man’s careful daughter
You are the best thing that’s ever been mine.
Do you believe it?
Going to make it now.
I can see it,
I can see it now.

A girl's dilemma .

Haiz.. Very confusing. Very confusing. Let me tell you th story:

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[A], girl, has a crush on [B]. [B] don't know about it. Then [C] likes [A] and asked her for stead. [A] got to know that [B] was going to ask [D], another girl, whether she like him. If yes then he would ask her for stead. So [A] was heartbroken and decided to accept and try to love [C]. But she couldn't. After two days of relationship, she realise that she still love [B]. And guess what? [B] decided not to ask [D] for stead. [A] really love [B]. But she's attached..

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I pity her a lot.. Go girl.. Identity confidential..

[A] - Me
[B] - Dawek
[C] - Zahier
[D] - Carol

Oh My Bieber . Oh My Phrada . Kesian..

That's all folks. Bye!

You look like you care for me .

Yesterday I chat with someone.. Then it turned out like this:

Him - tk sleepy

Me - nope . you sleepy eh ?

Him - what if i?

Me - if you are then go to sleep .

Him - no i'm not.. haha..

Me - haha , i thought you were

Him - why? if i offline, u bored ryte?

Me - of course ..

Him - if i online? now?

Me - then i'm nt bored la .

Him - ohh... u must have me lah... then you were not bored?

Me - yahr .. sort of ..

Him - ohh.. haha

Me - haha ..

Him - then wat.. everytime you go out you need me?

Me - haha .. YESH ! not really ar . when you're around , the day just gets better and fun .

Him - ohhh.. haha.

Me - haha .. why are you asking all these ?

Him - cause look like u care for me..

Me - of course . senior mah . if you dun wan me to care for you then nvm -.-

Him - ok.. i know u care lah.

Me - haha, ;D

He's the guy of my dreams. He's the guy in my heart. He's the guy I love. But he loves some one else. =D
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I happen to be in love again. With someone who was mine. But we had to come to an end. He hated me so much. But likes me again. D=
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Bye lahr. Dada.

I love Darwin !

50 Things .

Be honest no matter .

01. Who was your last text from?
Khairul Shah

02. Where was your default picture taken?
My bedroom .

03. Your relationship status?
Attached .

04. Have you ever lost a close friend?
Yeah , 3 days ago .

05. What is your current mood ?
Heartbroken .

06. How many siblings do you have? 
2 - excluding me .

07. Whats your brother(s)/sister(s) names?
Dilaila , Irdina [sisters]

08. Where do you wish you were right now?
Paris .

09. Have a crazy side?
Yea , all th time !

10. Ever had a near death experience? 
Yesh ! Nearly hi by a back car . Scary sia !

11. Something you do a lot? 
Online .

12. Angry at anyone?
No (:

13. What's stopping you from going for the person you like? 
The fact that he likes someone else & afraid of rejection .

14. When was the last time you cried?
When I lost my eyeliner last week .

15. Is there anyone you would do anything for?
My family .

16. What do you think about as you are falling asleep?
Him <3

17. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
Ilya Ayli

18. What is your favorite song? 
Ooo . I've got truckloads liao ..

19. What are you doing right now?
Breathing .

20. Who do you trust right now?
God .

21. Where did you get the shirt you are wearing? 
From Mummy !

22. Have you kissed someone in the past week?
Yeah ! My sis !

23. Who is your friend that lives closest to you? 
Darwin .

24. Describe your life in one word?
Awesome !

25. Who are you thinking of right now?
Him <3

26. What should you be doing right now?
Sleeping .

27. What are you listening to?
Peace .

28. Who was the last person who gave you a hug?
My Dad .

29. Who was the last person who yelled at you?
My sis , a minute ago .

30. Do you act differently around the person you like? 
Yea , but no too obvious .

31. What is your natural hair color?
Caramel Brown <3

32. Who was the last person to make you laugh?
Darwin .

33. Who was the last person to make you sad?
Him <3

34. What do you hear?
Sounds . Voices . Songs . Anything audible .

35. Is your hair curly or straight ? 
Curly .

36. Has anyone ever called you "scrumptious" before?
No .

37. Do you have a best friend?
Yea , plenty of 'em !

38. Held hands with the opposite sex in the past 3 days?
Yes ! A stranger , by accident .

39. Do you use smiley faces on the computer?
Yeah .

40. Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
Erm , yeah . Had to .

41. Are you happy with life right now ? 
Of course .

42. Are you currently jealous? 
Yea !

43. What jewelry are you currently wearing?
Bracelet , Earings , Necklace .

44. What were you doing on friday night? 
Pray .

45. Have you ever had your heart broken?
Yes !!

46. Have you ever broken someone's heart? 
Yea , my Dad's .

47. Is there anybody you're really disappointed in right now?
YEA !

48. What was the last reason you went to the doctor for? 
Asthma . [ Symptom only ]

49. How late did you stay up last night and why?
Till 5am . Facebook prevent me from sleeping :)

50. Have you ever dated someone longer than a year?
I hope so . Not yet though ..